I ♥ Blockheads

Times are hard right now. I can barely afford my rent due to my over-the-top spending on my NKOTB obsession last year. I've depleted my savings, my bonus check is gone, my federal tax refund, my state refund, and my economic stimulus of 2008 has all gone to the New Kids on the Block. It was my choice and I don't regret most of it. So when the spring tour was announced, naturally, I wanted to go. However, due to my relentless spending, I now have to miss out on the spring tour in exchange for living vicariously through the stories, experiences, photos & videos of my newly found Blockhead friends. It breaks my heart to think about not being able to see them. I know, I know, why am I complaining?

I'm not complaining. I'm just realizing how precious this time is. I've always wondered what it was like to travel back in time and somehow, the New Kids have figured out a way to make that possible. Last year, I was suspended in a time warp to a period when life was carefree, fun & enjoyable. I didn't care about bills. I didn't care about responsibilities. I didn't care about anything but hangin' out with my friends, laughing, & having a good time.

As reality began to sink in this year, I had to return to my real world of unpaid debts, revitalizing neglected friendships, and stepping out of my fantasy realm and into reality, slapping me in the face. The announcement of the NKOTB spring 2009 tour came at an unexpected time and sadly, I have to bow out. I can barely afford to keep up with life since my funds are now depleted and I'm living life on a solo credit card that has no mercy when it comes to interest rates. A regular person outside of being a New Kids fan could never understand why the obsession is so strong, like a drug addiction. Who would understand other than my Blockhead friends? They know. They understand. They get this. They GET this!! =)

They are the reason I was sitting at work yesterday, crying my eyes out because they all chipped in and bought me and our other friend, Ana, 4* NKOTB concert tickets, a value of $350 for the Fresno Show. I couldn't believe the existential generosity & love between us. Their efforts to enable me to get to this one show is overwhelming and I am touched, blessed & speechless. In addition to this, they also faded in on getting me a NorCal sweater for the Kimmel Show a couple weekends ago which I also couldn't afford!! Because of them, Donnie's first words to me at the Kimmel Show were, "What up NorCal?!" and all I thought about was not Donnie Wahlberg, but them. My Blockhead sisters are feeding me a love & kindness that surpasses what a phenomenal love this truly is. My regular friends are always yelling at me & putting down my obsession as a crazy phase but it's useless. I could explain it, but they could never know. I am forever grateful for this love, friendship, & affection and just wanted to say thank you & I love you to my NorCal NKOTB sisters, you know who you are. ;) Through this reunion, I've found a love that has no boundaries. You have no idea how much your love has affected me. THANK YOU!! I LOVE YOU! MUAH!!